Post by Caligo [Inactive] on May 23, 2006 11:08:52 GMT -5
Well, I'm back to make a number of statements. First and foremost: I'm not dead yet.
Now, why, you ask would I make that the prime statement? Well I'll tell you. Being sick and taking a day off is apparently a good reason for your girlfriend of three years to want nothing more to do with you. No other reason. Just bein down a day is a perfect excuse for all hell to break loose.
Now, another prime point: Shit was ugly. Big fuckin deal. Am I hurt? Ya think? Do I feel betrayed and lied to? Hell yes. Am I suicidal? That's never been a real option.
Pop quiz. You think somebody's gonna take something REALLY badly. And that something happens. And you call that person up - against his wishes - and talk to him to piss him off and depress him more, then you waste a good half hour with him telling you in a completely calm, collected, even cold manner that he's gonna be fine. Question is: Do you call the cops?
Mike alias Archangel thought the answer to that all too obvious question was yes. He lives in New fucking Hampsire. I live in Michigan. Now I don't know about you guys, but I can only break so much before I am cold to the world. That point was last night. As such, I have only logic and no compassion for anything, and if I do have emotion in that state, it is only wrath.
So, I tell him about 50 times that I'm fucking fine. This cock smoker calls the fucking sheriff anyway and has them call me and sends an officer out to my house. Wasting time and resources on all accounts. Alright Mike, since you're readin this, maybe YOU handle YOUR hardships with attempts at suicide (lost count and care of how many times, pal), but not all of us do.
SO, in addition to wasting the time of Macomb Dispatch, the cool deputy, myself, and my mother, you've given me yet more hell at her hand. She didn't take all that well to all the bullshit you put her through, Mike. And I don't take well to that shit being on my record. If that's your interpretation of helping out, believe me, NOBODY[/i][/u] needs any enemies with a friend like you.
Now, don't get the impression that I'm coming back. Nothing could be farther from the truth. I said I was through here and I mean it. All I want is a fucking reason WHY[/i][/u] the events of last night took place to begin with. I have my ideas, but I want to hear it from her. I want to know WHY[/i][/u] after the day before we were fine and made the promise not to give up on this until we got to meet at least once - and I was arranging for that in two weeks. Teach me to spend hundreds of dollars and hours of time on somebody - I want to know WHY[/i][/u] now. And if my suspicions are indeed correct, there will literally be hell to pay.
I'm intact, extremely pissed off, hurt, betrayed, and stabbed in the heart through the back, but yeah, everything's good.
A person can only take so much before he says "Fuck it." That was me. And I'm here for answers[/i][/u], not that I think it will change anything. If you're going to throw some one that's been devoted to you for three full years without so much as being within 100 miles of you away, you can at least offer up an excuse instead of hiding behind your keyboard.
I'm through with the bullshit and drama. I'm finished with all of this. I demand a fucking explanation, and I DAMN well better get one if you were worth any of the time I spent on you.
And to Mike, you're finished. Don't you so much as THINK of talking to me ever again. Don't think about asking anyone about me, fuck, don't even fucking THINK ABOUT ME AT ALL! Are we clear?
Now, why, you ask would I make that the prime statement? Well I'll tell you. Being sick and taking a day off is apparently a good reason for your girlfriend of three years to want nothing more to do with you. No other reason. Just bein down a day is a perfect excuse for all hell to break loose.
Now, another prime point: Shit was ugly. Big fuckin deal. Am I hurt? Ya think? Do I feel betrayed and lied to? Hell yes. Am I suicidal? That's never been a real option.
Pop quiz. You think somebody's gonna take something REALLY badly. And that something happens. And you call that person up - against his wishes - and talk to him to piss him off and depress him more, then you waste a good half hour with him telling you in a completely calm, collected, even cold manner that he's gonna be fine. Question is: Do you call the cops?
Mike alias Archangel thought the answer to that all too obvious question was yes. He lives in New fucking Hampsire. I live in Michigan. Now I don't know about you guys, but I can only break so much before I am cold to the world. That point was last night. As such, I have only logic and no compassion for anything, and if I do have emotion in that state, it is only wrath.
So, I tell him about 50 times that I'm fucking fine. This cock smoker calls the fucking sheriff anyway and has them call me and sends an officer out to my house. Wasting time and resources on all accounts. Alright Mike, since you're readin this, maybe YOU handle YOUR hardships with attempts at suicide (lost count and care of how many times, pal), but not all of us do.
SO, in addition to wasting the time of Macomb Dispatch, the cool deputy, myself, and my mother, you've given me yet more hell at her hand. She didn't take all that well to all the bullshit you put her through, Mike. And I don't take well to that shit being on my record. If that's your interpretation of helping out, believe me, NOBODY[/i][/u] needs any enemies with a friend like you.
Now, don't get the impression that I'm coming back. Nothing could be farther from the truth. I said I was through here and I mean it. All I want is a fucking reason WHY[/i][/u] the events of last night took place to begin with. I have my ideas, but I want to hear it from her. I want to know WHY[/i][/u] after the day before we were fine and made the promise not to give up on this until we got to meet at least once - and I was arranging for that in two weeks. Teach me to spend hundreds of dollars and hours of time on somebody - I want to know WHY[/i][/u] now. And if my suspicions are indeed correct, there will literally be hell to pay.
I'm intact, extremely pissed off, hurt, betrayed, and stabbed in the heart through the back, but yeah, everything's good.
A person can only take so much before he says "Fuck it." That was me. And I'm here for answers[/i][/u], not that I think it will change anything. If you're going to throw some one that's been devoted to you for three full years without so much as being within 100 miles of you away, you can at least offer up an excuse instead of hiding behind your keyboard.
I'm through with the bullshit and drama. I'm finished with all of this. I demand a fucking explanation, and I DAMN well better get one if you were worth any of the time I spent on you.
And to Mike, you're finished. Don't you so much as THINK of talking to me ever again. Don't think about asking anyone about me, fuck, don't even fucking THINK ABOUT ME AT ALL! Are we clear?